Unveiled Soul

Your love for me is like a drug!! Such a cliche right? But I don't have any control over that. You make me feel comfortable, you make me feel seen, you make me feel loved. Who doesn't want that? Everyone does.  But...... There is always a bad side to everything. Your love for me feels like a cage. Sometimes awful things win over the good ones. Your anger makes me feel bad about myself, your ego gives me self doubt, you make me feel like you are taking control over me. Your love for me makes me vulnerable. With you, it feels like I'm in a different world. You make me happy, but you give sadness on an extreme level. Your love for me is sometimes a question. Why do I have to explain myself every time I keep a point? I know I don't express myself that often but why can't you make an effort to understand me? Is love so difficult? Is your love for me enough? No, it's not. What's the point of being in love if you don't understand each other. I know ...

Argh...... Sometimes, a question keeps popping up in our minds " AM I TRYING TOO HARD? ".  These types of questions can come out of nowhere, about anything or when anything doesn't go according to your plan. And it's okay. Sometimes a person's disapproval can make us question ourselves, sometimes someone's rejection can do that to us, sometimes you are making an effort, you are trying to do your best but things don't go right and there you are questioning yourself "Am I trying too hard?". It's normal. It's okay. It's totally fine. You are alright, you are not trying too hard but you are pressuring yourself. Why are we so worried about the outcomes of our decisions? We can't change the final consequence, the only thing we can do is make an effort at least you are trying. If things don't go according to you, maybe they are not worth it. So why beat ourselves, question ourselves. Trust yourself, trust your instincts, ...

Nowadays everyone mistakes their lust for love. Are we that shallow, we can't even see the difference? Of course, we can but we chose not to. Life is full of choices and where you stand right now is the result of your choices only. We choose to mistake lust as love. We choose to hurt the other person for our desires. We choose to make them believe it's real but it's just all the drama for our needs.  We make them trust ourselves, open themselves to us, make them vulnerable. But for what? For lust? For attraction? Do they deserve this!? Why can't we tell them the truth? Why do we have to hurt someone always? Why is it so hard to accept the fact you are just ruining the other person? Why can't you just be there for someone? Why it cannot be long soothing hugs instead of your hand going in their clothes? Is it really that hard to understand someone, make them feel safe? No, it's not. So why can't we be someone's happiness rather than being the c...

Ummm.... First move!! The first move is always full of doubts and what-ifs. What if they ignore me, what if they find me intimidating, what if my first impression comes out wrong. Our minds just revolve around these thoughts.  So, is the first move that scary? No, it's not. It's just a mind game, all the doubts are in our head only. We think that making the first move has all the negative what-ifs but there is a positive side also. What if they also wanted us to make the first move, what if they also liked us and so on. Does gender matter? Most people think that only the male gender can make the first move. But it's not true, whoever wants to make the first move can make it. You just need to be willing. Take your chance, what do you get to lose? What can you do? The only thing you can do is make effort. If it is meant to be it will happen. So why not make the first move, at least you tried, right!? Maybe in the end all the efforts are worth it.  A b...

Nowadays chasing someone you like have become very common. Most of the people you know are chasing someone, putting in their full effort. They will make you feel special, they will make time for you, they will do their best to make you feel that you are a priority, you are important to them. Sometimes when you will ignore them or get angry they will even put their self-respect aside to win you. But what after the chase? They won you, now you are trying to be your best because you think they have made so much effort that they deserve your trust, full effort but later you realise they were only with you because of the chase. You slowly notice that now you are being taken for granted, the person you knew when they were chasing you is gone. Their new version is just ignorant and now you are chasing them. Doesn't it hurt that you fall for someone because of their sweet gestures, their way of treating you and now you realise that it was all JUST A CHASE?